To whom it may concern
When I started working as an escort, I thought the most difficult part would be to deal with agressive clients. Ironically, it turns out the things I find the most difficult is quite the opposite: it’s the clients that love me too much… I have more than once thought of quitting my escort career because I couldn’t take it anymore.
I am going to be a bit bold. This blog has been on my mind for months now. I hope that by writing this, we can avoid difficult conversations (and focus on having a wonderful time together when we meet!).
It’s important to remember that I am not Anna.
Anna is single, she has a care free life, she’s radiant, healthy and she doesn’t have any problems worth mentioning. No kids, no dying relatives. Anna spends her time reading, going to the gym, blocking highways for climate justice. She looks effortlessly pretty at all times, and she would never use the restroom for a number two.
Anna is also a bit of a chameleon: when you’re tall, she’ll probably wear heels. When you’re short, she wears ballerinas. Are you a bit conservative? Anna will likely wear expensive brands and pearl earrings when you meet. When you’re the woke type of guy (or just Arab), Anna might show up wearing a keffiyeh.
Is Anna fake?
Yes and no.
Anna is a part of me: I am a bookworm, I block highways and I go to the gym. But I am not just Anna. There are parts of me I won’t tell you about.
I might be on the Interpol wanted list, I might be married (to a man or to a woman), I might have five kids, or terminal cancer…
I am not telling you these things, because they don’t add anything to our experience (they might even damage the experience). The only thing you need to know is:
I am not looking for a relationship.
Please don’t ask. And remember: I’m only showing you the best parts of myself. I’m hiding the less pretty parts. I understand that our time together can feel incredibly intimate, and it’s natural to develop strong feelings. However, for both our sakes, it’s important to remember the context of our relationship.
Of course it’s my job to keep the balance, too. I shouldn’t create any false expectations, be sweet but not too sweet… I’m still learning, I am only a newbie in the escort business. So you’ll need to help me a little with this.
Even if you don’t say anything, I can tell when you’re reading too much into our meetings. The result is: I’ll be less sweet, a bit more distant. Which is such a shame!
My vision is as follows: in the hours that we meet, we’ll be lovers. I will love you with all my heart. We’ll build our own little cocoon, forget about the world, filled with love and lust. Depending on your needs, the emphasis can shift from lust to love and back.
When the time is up, the cocoon is gone. I’ll still think of you every now and then, maybe not as often as you think of me, and I’m sorry about that. It’s because I have a lot of lovers, but let’s not go there okay?
So please protect your heart, don’t force me to break it… Because every time I have to do that, my heart breaks a little, too.